Confusing Thoughts of my Heart

Have you ever felt the sensation of being in-love? The feeling of care for someone at the extent that you even forget to care about yourself. Me? Maybe… I can’t say. My life has been a mess lately. What if I will just tell you the whole story? So, let me begin…

Since I was young, I did not really know that such a world, kingdom of love, exists. I was also not aware of the feeling people feel when they have entered such a place. I have been experiencing puppy love and the thing that totally confuses me is the difference of it from the real love. Maybe I am just too young for saying these things and I admit that I am having a hard time thinking if I will post this entry or not but then, let me just continue.
I only have one as of now. (Char! Mura gyud og naay daghan sauna.) To keep him confidential and to prevent me from being scandalized, I will just call him Mr. EGM. It all started last year and unfortunately, I forgot the date but it was, I think, the middle part of the Intramurals event. I did not really expect I would fall for him because that time I was really addicted with someone else. About someone else…Promise! You don’t want to know. It is a great shame but if you insist just approach me and please remember it is confidential. Ok! Sorry! I got carried away. So, where am I again?

Oh! So, then I was in the peak of my fantasy with someone else that I will just call Past. I was alone and thinking of all my heartaches and problems. It is just Past is very impossible to reach and that time some information leaked from my friends and a humor scattered. As a solution, I decided to find someone else as a temporary cover with all those issues. Then, I saw him. He was playing soccer with his team and I don’t know what came into my mind that I chose him as the replacement. As most people know me, I am out of my mind so I announced to some of my close friends that I got a crush on Mr. EGM but all of it was just a pure joke. However, it just so happen that cupid was listening and not intentionally, I fell for him. Why did I say such a thing? It is because I started caring for him. It happened in the Athlete’s Night. I thought he was crying and that I was dying to know why. At first, it never really occurred to me that it was care for him but as time passes, I then realized it was.

Time passed so fast that I did not know I am not just falling for him but I am also drowning. The worst part of this story is that some stupid psycho was talking about it and as what happened in my past, a humor also scattered. Oh! Why is life like this? So unfair!

Now, who cares? All I know is that I like him and even if cupid forgot to hit him with that arrow which means he doesn’t like me so who cares? All I know is that people are dumb sometimes and that they are so stupid they fall for someone that don’t like them and I accuse myself as one of them. No matter how my classmates tease him that he is ugly and everything and even I sometimes get discouraged especially when I saw his handwriting, I still don’t care. As long as for me you are perfect so you are and that is it!

I know you are tired of reading all my nonsense so I will just end it. Just a little message to Mr. EGM if in case you have read this (that is if you know I meant about). Just don’t think about it. Forget that I exist and don’t care in everything that I said. All I hope is that my mother won’t read this. So that is it. Hope you enjoyed. :-)

Knowing Me 101

Hello to all the readers out there if there are any. Hope your having a happy life cause I am. This is my first post and I hope I can make up the remaining, I think, twenty or more. So, why don't you start knowing before it is too late.
First and foremost, my name is Jeziel Anne Lapatha Sanchez. Most of my friends call me JALS cause I said so but my relatives call me Aigee and it was said that it really meant Inday Gamay. JALS came from my initials by the way. Actually, I was supposedly named Jillian Issa but since my parents got my brother's name from the bible so they just replaced it by Jeziel which means God Sprinkles. Then, just to give me a second name, my parents decided to add Anne which is the name of the mother of the Virgin Mary, St. Ann.
I am thirteen years, nine months and twelve days of age as of today. I am currently living not beside your house but in Lower Bacayan, Cebu City; Opposite Villa del Rio 1; Near Pristina North; Philippines. If you don'tknow where it is, just do not bother knowing. I was born on the 28th of August, 1993 at about eight in the morning. I think it was a Monday.
Well, my mother is Gertrudes Lapatha Sanchez and her nickname is Odette. Do not even think how Gertrudes came to Odette cause I do not know either. My father , if you may ask, is the late Maximo Cano Sanchez Jr. and as I have said in, he died five years ago due to Chronic Renal Failure or Kidney Malfunction. I think that was January 1, 2002 at 11:45 in the morning and yes, it was definitely a sad New Year. So much about that, let us now move on to my brother. His name is Jezreel Lapatha Sanchez. My mom said that Jezreel means God Sows. He is already fourteen yeas old and is currently studying in his third year in Cebu City National Science High School. We don't always get along. We fight without clear reasons but, if he is in his right mind, he is a loving, thoughtful and caring brother. I love him so much! Then, the last member of our fmily, our pet cat. He was named Johan and he has been a special and important part of the family. ( As you have noticed, we have J's in our names and I do not call our cat Johan. He is being called Gong Gong cause I was called Gang Gang and since he is a he so just change a from o.) Even if he consumes most of my mom's money and he bugs us a lot, he became our entertainer. He is lazy and he is afraid of rats. (Naka-relate ka?) He also types and chat in the computer. How? He jumps in the keyboard and types words we don't understand and sends it to the person we are chatting with. See? He rocked our world!
Having a family is really not that bad. Even if at the thought of parents sucks. I have always treasured my family, it may be complete or not and I do hope that you would also treasure them as I do. So, why not start now that you have time.....